I know, and I believe you know as well,
that repressing and suppressing does nothing but create illness. The dis-ease created may be a low-grade anxiety or fear that follows you for a lifetime, or it may rise into more aggressive illnesses. Either way it reduces your quality of life, because repression of any part of your beautiful nature lowers your frequency.
From where I stand now, I know with certainty that I experienced many extremely painful life circumstances, so that I would be forced to wake up and choose myself. The wisdom I gained from that choice has led me to be able to stand fully in my deep, embodied knowing that the shadow self, if not acknowledged, accepted and loved, will destroy your life.
“the
shadow”
If you can’t see it
Then it doesn’t exist
I live like this
But the pain persists
Shut out the noise
And close my eyes
Lies, lies, lies
Back of the closet
Behind the bed
Lost in that pile
Don’t unravel the thread
How many times
The same lesson learned
Touch the flame
And then hide the burn
Ignore the pain
And the wisdom learned
Forward, forward, forward
If you can’t see it
Then it doesn’t exist
I live like this
But the pain persists
Shut out the noise
And close my eyes
Lies, lies, lies.
Behind the dresser
Behind the drawer
Ignore, ignore, ignore
What is that tapping
That gnawing pain
Trouble erupts and
I push it away
What is that pinch
I feel to awake
I just fake, fake, fake
Despite all my resistance to facing her (my shadow), my painful life circumstances pushed me to a point where I had to take the steps and face the shame and hold myself in love rather than my usual self-loathing and fear.
That’s when EVERYTHING began to change.
When I took that next step to honour my sovereignty, this sent a message to my soul, that I was going to Become the One for myself. I was going to become my protector, my wise and grounded father, by learning what healthy boundaries were and how to enforce them. And I was going to become my soft place to land, as the most compassionate and loving mother I could ever want.
I was going to meet my own needs.
I was going to learn to trust myself.
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I was going to learn to trust myself. 〰️
I am the Priestess of my Soul
I am the Priestess of my soul
I came down here to rock and roll
Calling out across the waves
Lord, take this pain away
I am the Priestess of my soul
Claiming now my ancient role
Clawing my way back to the shore
I’m the One I’ve been waiting for.
“The Dragon
I Created”
I don’t remember the exact day
Or way
That I created the dragon
That protected my tender sweetheart
But I know that I did
And there in the depths of my fiery being
I imprisoned vulnerability, trust, boundaries and self-worth
And there they sat
Engulfed in flames
Burning pain
And burning shame
And I don’t remember the exact day
Or way
That I awoke to my courage
And my power
But I did
And I am
Again and again and again
And I thank the dragon
For his fierce protection
Of my treasured heart
That I could not
Risk exposing
And together we rise.
Now I heal through my soft open heart, communicating my needs and speaking my boundaries.
I became the One for myself.
I took all the shame I had buried, and I learned how to love and hold myself and my shame, until it no longer triggered me.
And I rose, unfurling my leaves and beginning to open my petals.
Pure Sacred Divine Magic unfolded, and continues to every day.
“How”
Already through one season of the fall
Like wind-blown leaves stripped from trees
I have been stripped of old thoughts, patterns
And ways that held me
Prisoner in my mental cage.
How can it be
That finally
I am ready to receive
When love eluded me
For so long
That I thought
It wasn’t possible for me
To feel the openness of a heart
That is loved as is
As I am
To sink into the serenity
Of safety
Of bliss
Without the show
The performance
The alertness
The guarded woundedness that I
Thought love was.
In just one season of the fall
Touched by the wisdom of the tree
I have let my dead leaves drift away
And naked I have stood
In front of you
And you have
Seen me and held me
In your fiercely tender, loving heart
As I am
Through the version I wanted to uphold
Through my believed brokenness
Through my fears of unworthiness.
I was ready
To feel through your heart
That I am worthy
I am beauty
I am able to exude love
In every season.
It is with the deepest gratitude
That I thank the universe and the angels
Hovering above us
That life orchestrated our meeting
When the leaves were still shining
When the breeze of summer
Was still golden
When the sky opened up
And the rains fell from heaven
When angels whispered into our hearts
“Be here now”
And that, my love, is
How.
This love is a healing love on every level for me.
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This love is a healing love on every level for me. 〰️
I am here as proof, that meeting your shame and loving your shadow self is the surest way to raise your frequency and rise into the light of who you truly are.
“I Heal in a
Spiral”
I heal in a spiral,
ascending slowly
to heaven.
I heal in a spiral,
giving me opportunity
to revisit the same wounds
with a fresh perspective.
I heal in a spiral
to lovingly see
how far I’ve come.
I heal in a spiral
because it is much stronger
than one straight line.
I heal in a spirl
to be certain
that my hard-won lessons
have created true
inner strength.
I am here to share my experiences and tools and creative visions with you.
As a master Waldorf teacher, I spent 20 years learning and growing in a deeply held spiritual community. I began working in this cutting-edge community at the age of 28, and over the years I gained the skills as a master facilitator, mediator and space holder.
In addition to my years in Waldorf education, I hold a 700-hr yoga teacher certification, 5 Elemental Rhythms Ecstatic Dance facilitation training, and most recently I have completed an Integrative Sexuality and Relationship Coach Certification. However, beyond any of this work and training, I know that my personal life story and hard-won lessons are my most influential training and my biggest gift to my clients
